Assalamualaikum and hai!
It's been a while. Kekoknya nak menulis or more to mengarut here. Actually banyak je idea nak di mengarutkan , cuma rasa macam 'sampah' sangat. So, better simpan sorang je kot. Kan?
Kekangan masa juga memainkan peranan. Belajar + kerja (kerja main-main namanya ) pada waktu yang sama. Why work? Gained experienced (boleh tulis dalam resume bila dah habis belajar), money (walaupun sejam 5 henggit sajo) + Free coffee / frappucino & foods every working days (mendapat benefit sebagai pekerja, 30% discount on everything there, free coffee bean every month, tumbler free), it was fun working there even now dah rasa boring, but hey, ingat senang ke nak dapat kerja? Haha. I am lucky. Oh ya, I met Najwa Latif the other day when she went to my store. Sempatlah bergosip kejap sepam dua. Hehehe.
Sigh.
Besides class, assignment and test, and yeah currently this are all what I've been doing. Pencapaian terbaru (tak adalah baru sangat), I now drive back and forth to KL-Seremban, ALONE. Yeayyy..*tepuk tangan*. Kalau boring duduk Kl, I went back home dan dan tu jugak. See, I am a boring person. I don't hangout and wandering in the mall even if I have the ability/chance to do so. I go out if I've things to shop for. So, mama ayah you don't have to worry about me sneaking out berhuha di kotaraya KL ye. Haha. Oh ya, ada sekali je I go out at nights after works (11.30 pm) meronda area SS2 with friends. That's it. And ada one time after works jugak nak pergi print (kedai mana lah yang bukak sampai midnight kan?) sampai pergi ke area Damansara , asalnya nak pergi Center Point je kot. Then sesat barat sampai OU la. Nasib tak terus gi Kepong ke. Dah lah malam-malam (almost 12 smth), you knowlah KL bukan macam Seremban at night. Kadar jenayah tinggi. Adoii, ni kalau ayah tau mau kena tarik balik kereta.
Dan juga I've a dilema or so
Probably this year (the latest) or next year my family has to migrate to other country. Negara apa? Tak confirmed, but rumors said it'll be somewhere in the middle east. Paling sekejap 3 tahun, paling lama 5 tahun. Ni nak suka ke apa ni? Haha.
Honestly, knowing ayah dia tak akan nak tinggalkan anak dara dia tiga orang ni dekat Malaysia, while the rest are residing in the other continent. Memang kalau boleh dia nak semua ikut . I want to follow to0 but.....haih.
Dan mengikut perancangan, everyone going to go of course. Me? Bila tahu pasal hal tu, aku baru je tengah memulakan pengajian di sem 1, tak habis belajar lagipun baru nak merangkak discover a new things. Apa benda pun tak stabil lagi in terms of my life. Should I migrate too? This is middle east country okay? What do you expect? What should I do there? Bila balik nanti, how's my career going to be? Umur pun bukan muda lagi kan..
And
I don't want to be here, ALONE, honestly. In bukan KL-Kuching. Air Asia tak buat lagi tambang murah ke Middle-east contry lagi.Haha.
My family is a big thing for me. It's my life. The six of us.
I can't imagine living without them, for now.
Macam, bila bosan duduk kat Kl, where should I turned to?
Bila balik rumah, semua orang tak ada, wandering alone, imagine having that feeling. Even wan atuk and other extended families are still here, mana nak sama dengan family sendiri kan? Tak sama kan.
Bila ada recipe menarik, nak kongsi dengan mama..nak borak pasal kelas..she's the one that always concern about my studies. Hmmm. Lepas ni nak share dengan sapa?
Aku jenis tak kisah tak ada kawan asalkan ada family. Apapun family first. That's me.
Stay or leave.
If I go, I've to sacrifice my study, career.
If I stay, I'll be missing them so dearly. They are not going to back every month. Especially my mum and dad.
Hmmm.
Maybe I should stay.
or
Should I go?
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